My Angel

My angel does not have wings majestic and white

But in turn gives me wonderous flight

My angel chooses me to smile down to

Making feel rejuvinated and anew

Holding my angel in my arms

Feels like holding an infinite amount of charms

My angels will forever be in my heart

Having nothing that will tear us apart

My angel does not smile down I finally see

But smiles straight towards me

Life

I felt like I was so high up in the sky
Failed efforts of hoping to fly

I thought i could really play pro ball
Useless efforts cause on my back i always fall

You'd think life would throw a dog a bone
So it wouldn't have to hear it wine and groan

To your equilibrium life can do things
When your elevated life can watch you fall by cutting of your wings

Cause the harder you will fall the higher you are
When you look down you see that the fall is far

But I owe it to life for showing me pain
No getting my hopes up high cause now i can refrain

Crumble

You say look forward to tomorrow
But tomorrow I see sorrow

You say in time wounds heal
But my time is frozen it seems so surreal

How can you tell me to smile
When my troubles continue to pile and pile

But things will never be the same
And there are a few to blame

So downwards I will keep tumbling
While before my eyes I watch my life crumbling

Dreams

In life some people live to accomplish something
And die having accomplished nothing

To leave an imprint on this Earth
To show there was meaning in their birth

But then they procrastinate
Before they know it their dead, it's too late

Some people say they will have fame and fortune
In the future dreams are lost because they don't want an abortion

A Teenage girl whose loose and wild
Her dreams are shattered because she has to support a child

Bright college student goes out for a drive
Family and friends, never again will they see him alive

Don't get me wrong goals are possible
But everybody can't get theirs that's just impossible

There may be days that are gray
And things might get in your way

Be wary you may get shamed
But your dreams are waiting to be claimed

Feel

Your amusement is my pain
I hear a bomb ticking in my brain

I feel like I'm about to bust
Because my emotions you turn to dust

I feel so empty inside
Because your tearing down my pride

I dream of dying
Waking up sweating and crying

You bring me into the dark
You're dragging me down like a shark

I've come so far from happy
Actually everyday I feel so crappy

The sun shines, and I dim
You've turned my life so grim

When I see you I feel rage
Because you perform for people like we're on stage

But you'll never cease to be a pest
Only six feet under will I have rest

Sandy "poem dedicated to my sis"

I reminisce about those days in pompano
I miss how we used to chill with our bro

Time we spent together in Margate
Was so much beyond great

Coral springs is now where we stay
Where your brilliance currently radiates like a suns ray

Days spent with you I never regret
And I hope that's something you never forget

Change

Our friendship is not the same
It's like a picture in a frame

Frozen somewhere in time
Our friendship was a dime

Let me elaborate
Dime means top rate

Slow is your effort to talk to me
But when I try to talk it's all "let me be"

I miss the days we were tight
And our conversations didn't end in a fight

I feel that our friendship is regressing
Instead of progressing

Like that dirt on your shoulder you brush me off
Oh yeah I don't notice *cough cough*

We had a good run
But I ain't ready to say we done

I'm a good friend so I will try
To not let this relationship die

Yet

You underestimate your beauty
I wish you could see what I see

You are a star yet to be found
Thousands of people yet to profound

A flower yet to bloom
Or a bomb yet to boom

A bird yet to learn how to fly
Yet to know how to soar the sky

This is definite not a maybe
All you gotta do is shine baby

In a world

We live in a world with sorrow and pain
Where children grow up to sell crack cocaine

Where the kings dream has become a nightmare
Where brothers can shoot each other without a care

where fathers abuse ya
mothers refuse ya

where girls don't care about school
and only want to be used as a tool

where children are abandoned
homies left stranded

Where death goes in a spiral round and round
And amber alerts barely astound

So let people from every nation come and unite
so we can stand as a blinding light

So we can live in a future that's bright
where we can actually say everything's alright

Where men respect women
So their happiness never dimmens

Obama is right, it is time for a change
So lit's up to us to rearrange

Things arent looking good at this rate
So let's do something before it's too late

Hurt

Why won't you let me love you
The kind words I say to you are true

I know you're supposed to be treated kindly
Instead of being cheated on blindly

But don't give up on love
Baby just rise above

And I know I can't offer jewerly priceless to be sold
But Instead I can give you love purer than gold

Fall for me, and grab my hand
And I promise on sheets softer than clouds you will land

Notice me

All these years our schools have been the same
And yet you still don't know my name
Notice me

No matter how hard I try
You leave me alone to cry
Why don't you notice me

I would do anything
If you would acknowledge me for something
please notice me

Its so aggrivating making me want to shout
Because I have finally figured out
You notice him so you wont notice me

Tears

Drip Drip, tears fall down
Drip Drip, sadness all around

Drip Drip, my friends try to comfort me
Drip Drip, my sadness, I wish they could see

Drip Drip, about life I think
Drip Drip, now my tears can fill a sink

Drip Drip, when will I stop crying
Drip Drip, when will people stop prying

Drip Drip, no one can really understand
Drip Drip, so alone I must stand

Ms. Anonymous

You are wonderful
 but hurt

beautiful
 but misunderstood

 kind
 but stomped on

 You are caring
 but you are nt cared enough for
 You are giving
 but people take to much from you

Dreams hope and Fate

"dreams dont always come true wishes are even less likely to come true but fate is bound to come true " Schneider Bertrand 2009

poem

"Couldn't be"
I thought me and her could be

but now i can see

she does not want me

so now it isan iminent loneliness guarantee

 

How could i be so dim

and not see that she wants him

right now it seems grim

and that the disappointment is filled to the brim

 

but as long as she has a smile

i will be happy for awhile

for her i am willing to go the extra mile

so if shes happy it does not seem vile

 

Bertrand Schneider

Poems

“Nevermore”

I cry myself to sleep

Sinisterly you chuckle while I weep

Well nevermore, nevermore

Against the wall my head you bash

So daily I obtain a new gash

Well nevermore, nevermore

It’s only me who you beat

So to the snow covered substance I retreat

Well, nevermore, nevermore

Now your fate is destined to the end of my blade

Nevermore my nightmares you will raid

But the price is me imprisoned forever more forever more

“Can you hear”

Can you hear my heart

Beating softer every day that we’re apart

Can you hear my scream

Cause every night you die in a dream

Can you hear me cry

Because every night I drain my body dry

Well can you…?

“You Are”

Like honey you are sweet

You’re considered a treat

You got all girls beat

You are so funny

Cute as a bunny

With you I’m rich so I don’t need money

“Abortion”

You don’t even know his name

But still you kill him like game

Even though he’s tame

You put him to shame

He is your son

But you say what’s done is done

But you may well have shot him with a gun

“Afraid to love”

The feeling alone drives you insane

But when it’s over you do gain

You gain a whole new level of pain

So yes I am afraid

Because I am who love will degrade

In love you cannot trade

So love is really that scary

I just want to remove it from my vocabulary

But on the contrary

Love is spontaneous it may vary

“What’s wrong”

You ask me what’s wrong

I say it’s like a love song

I can’t just move along

It’s her that I miss

That medusa style kiss

Without her my life is in a an eternal abyss

That profound beauty

Which I have no immunity

To my life she provided positivity

Looking in her eyes

Time flies

Easily making my heartbeat rise

This is why I’m sad

But also why I’m mad

Because it’s not what I have it’s what I had

“Baby”

Me and my love

Thought our love wasn’t average but above

So then we had sex using no glove

Few weeks later her belly starts to grow

But that goes to show

She should’ve said no

Now I notice it burns when I pee

So I get tested, and I’m also positive for HIV

But it doesn’t only affect me

Because now the HIV has gone to the baby.

“Not an Object”

She is not an object

Something that you can subject

Doing this is something you will regret

She is supposed to be like a tree

So boundlessly free

And one day I hope she’ll branch out to me

“You are”

You are a star

That’s just who you are

So bright I only can glance from afar

It wouldn’t be right to call you just pretty

So if you be with me

I will put you on a pedestal for everyone to see

“Me and You”

I don’t know why

But when we say bye

I always want to cry

But when you come near

My heart gives a cheer

And through this long relationship we both will steer

So don’t fret my boo

I will always love you

And remember we are one not two

"Love"

Roses are red, Violets are blue

My whole life changed, since I met you

Since that day you've been stuck in my mind like glue

I need you because love takes 2

I think its a sign from up above

You fit like a glove

I picture you as my turtle dove

Oh my God I think I’m in love

Snite iz bored

life here in Fl iz borin its so tiring.

Dis dnt have a name yet juss sumin i wrote 1 day

I feel like cryin
i feel like dying
giving up da ghost and stop tryin
she said she loved me buh wuz she lyin
like jordin said without you how am i supposed 2 breathe with no air
because when i looked around u weren't dere
dis iz juss too much for me to bear
i feel like waking up and dis being one nightmare
i still remember da feel of your hair
but it feels like you stabbed me in da heart
played wit it like a dart
before i couldnt picture me and you being apart
now that i think did you even love me from the start
you were my life
i wanted you to be my wife
for me dere wuz no one above ya
i even put you above my motha
now you left me and gone to get anotha

Over

I gave you my trust
and you turned it into dust
You took the wrong path
now you do the math
lose my number, don't dare ever call
Do not ask me to hang at the mall
cry all you want I don't care care
because we are no longer considered a pair
we had a long run
but face it we are truly done
no more plans of you being my wife
so girl just get out of my life

Unbearable life

Life becomes unbearable

Just downright terrible

I wake up crying

Wishing i was dying

I now know the true meaning of pain

The same thing that's driving me insane

Screaming on the phone

then ending up alone

And every day's the same

Sad thing is I only got me to blame